Drowning in a sea of too much!

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Help!  I’m drowning!

Both inside and out, I am overwhelmed by too much of everything.  Too many thoughts and ideas.  Too many things to do, so much work and chores. Infinite requests and never-ending demands.  Too much stuff, clogging and cluttering my life.

Some days I am doggy paddling on the surface.  Splashing and spluttering but keeping my head above water.  It’s not elegant but it’s something.

Other days, I feel weighted and sink under, into the suffocating hug of overwhelm.  Struggling and fighting is our natural response, but makes things worse.  Freezing, doing nothing, seems only to take us deeper into despair.

Letting go is our only option… and strangely is what is needed.  Detaching ourselves from all those anchors, all those things weighing us down, all those demands pulling at us… even for a moment… a cup of tea.. a 5 minute walk in the fresh air.

We can float.

We can breathe.

We can Reset. Reassess. Restart.

We can’t help anyone else when we are drowning.  In those moments we need to be focused on self preservation… Taking our next breathe…Taking the next step, no matter how small.

We can help ourselves…

We can ask for help!  A life line or a rubber ring… something to hold on to… to catch our breathe.

We can speak up and tell someone how we feel…(Even write a blog post to clear our mind).

Don’t be afraid to ask for help, you are surrounded by life guards.. family, friends, strangers even, who want to see you survive.


Photo credit - Ryan McGuire - www.gratisography.com






Connecting all my dots…


My life is filled with new dots!

The dots are people and ideas, and everyday there are more.  Connecting these dots leads to an intricate web of connectedness.

Will I become a dot for someone else?

Will what i have to say, resonate with new people?  Will it touch someone? Will i be a connection, a link?

The World Wide Web and Social Media now give us visibility on these connections and encourages many many more.  We are captured in this web.  But it stretches further than we can imagine.  I love the visibility we now have.  We can find a new dot with a click, a flick , a like, a share, a tweet, a pin or a post!

I am caught in this web.

My dots connect me to people and ideas of not just wanting to exist, but to live!  And live meaningfully…

Everyday my eyes are being opened to new ideas, new ways, new people, new friends.  People pursuing what they love.  People living passionately. Breaking the moulds that restrict us.  Reminding me that anything is possible.

I want to dance amongst the dots… Tangle myself in a web of people that will support me and show me new ways. A community of dots, that breeds more dots and more connections.

Yes, i do sound a little dotty!  but it makes me feel less alone and given the sheer number of dots in the world, i know there will be dots that stick, that resonate.

Dots that make a spot in my life that cannot be removed.

Others may just be stepping stones….

Here i am making a dot on a page….will you connect with it?


photo credit - Keith Peters - Dots 2.  www.artfromcode.com 

Focus on progress rather than perfection and on how far you've come rather than how far is left to go

Focus on progress rather than perfection and on how far you’ve come rather than how far is left to go

Internet Dating

Now that i have started “this”… made a mark on the blank page (or website, if you want to be particular).

“This” is currently hard for me to define… It is an exploration inwards and outward.  It is an adventure. A journey.

I know with time and exploration, I’ll be able to define it. Refine it.  Find the constants in the change.  I never think it will be static, it will change as I do.  It will continually change. An evolution, maybe Darwinian in nature. Or maybe, more like a relationship that deepens and changes over time but is built on a solid foundation, shared vision and is filled with love.

Right now, it feels like internet dating!

The nervousness and vulnerability that comes with putting yourself out there, mixed with the excitement and potential of a perfect match.  I am trying things out.  Seeing how they feel, seeing how they are received, seeing who they attract?  People will be trying me out, feeling my words and feelings for a resonation.  A connection.

The excitement in the flurry of dates and interest in who i am and do we click?  We could have ainternet dating great conversation and a good time.  Despite how great a first date can be, you cannot know a person from that one meeting.  Just like you cannot know me from one post…

When you get home from the date and the excitement wears off, doubts creep in…

Do you see where this goes? Or nip in in the bud?  Or over time you see that despite an initial attraction, the differences are too great, the chemistry fades, or it just doesn’t feel right?

You can’t force it… But you can keep an open heart and open mind… and try again tomorrow (or read another post :) )

Like the blank page, I cannot promise greatness.  I cannot promise you will always like what you read… But i do promise to try, with honesty and vulnerability and open heart and mind.  To share my thoughts and experiences, so you can get to know me.   Even one date, (or one post, read)… I will be happy with that because if nothing else it will have been a hour of my life well spent.  Opening my self and connecting with others.

Can I buy you a virtual coffee sometime?

Disclaimer – I am happily married and not looking for dates… my husband reads this too.

Photo Credit - Laura Arrowsmith-Hudson 2014


“Change your mind…..

Change your life”

Blank Page

Blank Page

Photo Credit - Laura Arrowsmith-Hudson 2014

Dear Blank Page,

You are unblemished by word or thought.

So full of potential and creative promise…

Blank Page, how can you ask so many questions?

Once I commit…. once I make my first mark, I must continue…. I cannot let a small mark be the only vandalism of your clean, smooth space.  But can that small mark become something great?  Something worthy of your sacrifice, as you will be defaced and changed forever?  You make me feel uncomfortable, as i know i must open myself up, be vulnerable for the words to come pouring out…

I cannot promise greatness will fill your page.  I can only guarantee that you are extremely important and what you are giving up, will not be in vain.

It will be so many things….

Therapy – giving me a place to lay out my thoughts and clear my mind.

Opportunity – giving me countless chances to see what i can create.

Connection – a way to communicate my thoughts and share my mind cycles.

Memory Keeping – you will hold my memories clear, in black and white even when my mind tries to muddle them. 

Record – you will document my journey, for others who may want to follow or just for me to map the distance i have come.

Accountability – on your page, i will be accountable for ensuring your sacrifice amounts to something, as my words and thoughts will be indelibly etched.

Honesty – you will show it as it is, and as it was at that moment in time.

Blank Page, I hope to make you proud to hold my words, thoughts, ideas and dreams.  Thank you in advance for your contribution.  I am looking forward to where our shared endeavour leads us.